YOU AND ME.

A deep fried fish, rice, tomato stew with goat meat. green veggies, juice, ginger beer, family and a lot of love in the air. The year is ending with a lot of happiness and a lot of joy. I have wonderful people in my life and I am glad that they are here for me when I need them. I miss you not been here but completely understand that you have to be with your man and his family. We have grown to know much more about each other. Hope you are having a wonderful time and I hope to see a lot of you with happy smiles on your face this coming year. ALWAYS HAVE A PLACE IN MY LIFE.

Stars

Listening to stars, hearts. the voice of amy always heals me.
Its nice to have a stay home day.
Having normal day is like trying to reach the star.

The sound of mourning comes everyday only to remind us how to face death.
Death makes life more valuable and makes the living worth life.
It will be hard to even move a penny once i have lost my body.

How does sadness for such love can ever end?
Remember someone is remember their beautiful soul.
Memories are the only tomb stone can live in hearts.
She will always be the one, and when you look at the stars, you see it lights.
Lost souls are far, but always to be found.
I will help you get through it.
I will, even that means to jeopardize everything we have built. Too considerable became not considerable.
Love is worth sacrificing and life is worth sacrificing.
This one time I will not step back.

There is no light under this neverending tunnel.
Words twists into thorns crown, and please crown me.
The pain will bear with me, as we all do for each other.
Maybe all is only for thousand years later, you can recognize my love for you.

Sushi of Gari

78th st between york and 1 ave. Easy to get a reservation!

A nice small and simple but charming place with great service!

Started my father's birthday dinner with Tuna avocado with wasabi sauce and Salmon with tomato topping with cream cheese, both were heavenly. Every piece of fish was super fresh and done with great attention. The way they cut the fish was an art. Tempura was not really great. But they have great birthday flavor too, which the light was off and song was sung. Everyone in the restaurant was really into my dad's birthday. We ended the dinner with the pumkin pudding with candlelite smile.
This place is reasonable and in good taste.
Loved it. none of that signature chef cuisine bs.
Gotta say they had the best sushi i've had in NYC.

Travelled and back

Listening to "Ceremony" Remember Marie Antoinette, that is when she changed from Austrian to French. hahaha
I am loving all these up beat songs speeds up my pace and make my day more energetic. Hot Chip and New order is perfect for this fall. Although usually Fiona Apple is my favorite choice for Fall, but I'm tired of being depressed for now.
Maybe it is loneliness, maybe it is because I just went and come back from Hong Kong, everything is still dreamy to me. Job love life, still very dreamy. Future is unclear for me, and I am waiting for a change.
Like Ceremony.

Marietta and Lens

I started the week with a smile 'cause of the new things that has been happening to me. But I looked at your wonderful image that we created two Sundays ago. Love you totally rocked the camera lens. I am glad that we got to create after almost 4yrs. We need to shoot three more outfits like that in the next two weels so I can have a complete editorial.

house stuff

http://www.dwr.com/images/newsletter/20071105_annex/index.html
http://www.boconcept.us/Newsletter_Warehouse_Sale_-_1107-82275.aspx
We go sunday!

die basketball die

SO SO SO MAD
why do i have to even be compared to a dumb basketball game? I don't know
I just want to stab a basketball and kill it

(Evil) Day Dreamer

I had a dream with you and Pia in it. It was strange at first to see her face in my dream. I came home and found the both of you talking about me, but could not make out what you were talking about. Then you went shopping with me for a new BMW and in the dealer ship she was also there wearing a red dress with no shoes and there was black strings on her leg, all bunched up. It is really weird to dream of her since she is marked as evil in my mind. So now I am about to start my day and have a lot of images I will be editing. It will be a lot of fun I am sure of it.

This was a feast

This wknd was a filled with the family. Spent Sat with my younger one shopping for food in preparation for Sunday. Sunday was cooking day. Started off from 7am and continued until 7pm, but this was a feast. I cooked my heart out this wknd. I made five dishes I think, all Nigerian of course. There was Melon seed soup, Chicken and tomato stew, fried rice with smoked catfish, and Okra soup. It was so much food and so much fun. Everyone ate and almost passed out. I am very glad for the expression of satisfaction.

I was bored yesterday

Coworkers jokingly suggested me to set up a Marietta Fan Club.
Membership fee is $30, and we will send you a tee shirt and key chain.
The club will have probably 5 people. HAHAHAHAHA
I made up a "japanese flower dance" yesterday.
If you're unhappy, ask me to show you.
I guarantee it will bright up your day. Guaranteed!

cookies

um.. my lovely friend got me some cookies from Amai
Chai Almond- perfect harmoney of almond and Chai. Must be nice with English tea.
White tea with Strawberry- I was a little distracted by the strawberry seeds, and it was a bit too sweet. Still delightful.
The rest... I was too happy to eat them!! just enjoy it... so buttery and yummy!

BACK TRACK TO SAT

On NY cares day, I woke up at 8, drove to LES to pick up Jen, and drove to Ave K and Flatbush to paint an elementary school, only to arrive fashionably 1 hr late. Two lonely girls contributed with out crummy clothes, and get down to paint murals in New York Public school. Pretty much colored in the drawing they copied off some story book. Mainly stars and hearts, that's the only way kids will feel happy I guess. I picked the wall under the shade; I don't want to get sun burn, hahaha. So my subject was guitar on wings. After painting a few hearts, I pursued the wings. Being bored with block colors on the wall, I started to create gradient, really not a big deal. but i got so much compliments that I started to feel a little overwhelmed.
This dude sprayed me with blue paint all over with his roller, I was wearing my favorite sunglasses too....
Stopped by the jewelry sample sales that wasn't too exciting. Then we went to the afterparty for NYcares day at the Bowler's Lane. We stayed for 2 beers, and the line for burger and fries. After 1 hr in line, there was no fries left.... as a non meat eater, I was left with an empty stomach.
Met up with my favorite friend from HK, Carol. We celebrated Michel's birthday at Riki's. I looooove their fried rice, it was sooo good.
Took a few minutes to melt down the bouncer at the Public House. At the end, we took over the VIP room. My friends went wild.
tah tah

S***R SNEAKERS

With nothing to do on friday night before dinner/movie, Michel and I stopped by the FADER event. Some stylish DJ, was up the stage, and I could not make the difference if it was prerecorded or he was actually preforming. Anyways, it was absolutely for hipsters and I had trouble standing on my ground. We decided to go.
Dinner at French Cafe was always good. I love the owner, he's the best. Although the only french i could use was, ca va, merci, and au revoir. I wish DB is here.
I had a hard time finding a seat at the Sunshine theatre for Lust Cautions and returned the ticket with disappointment. But I was quite impressed that 70% were Asian in the theatre. I guess I lost the war of musical chair with them.
I remembered Tuan's post on myspace so I decided to check out Gargyle's opening party. I thought it was just another chill party. Found out it was for the newly opened online shop gargyle.com. Then found out it was opened by a friend Nhung, she is absolutely adorable. I haven't see her and Don for ages!!! In her showroom, I found these suede/patent pointy sneaker that I was eyeing for. Without the English pound exchange rate and shipping, she also gave me a lovely friend discount, I claimed them mine.
Yippy. I love party shopping. Michel, stop giving me a hard time.
Friday night was short, I got home before 11:30. but it was lovely

Where am I?
A full-time "do everything" job do use up all my energy.
But day to day chatting with you makes days go a lot faster.
Your embrace helps me conquer every hurdle with certainty.
Only to hope in the midst of all, the path will show.
Your occasional visit shines my way.
You will have me that way.
The deal!

MIA

Oct 2007 and 3months since I last posted. Well, as always things are still changing. I might have a surprise for you but I will not say until it is definite. I have spoken with you about so many things this few weeks and had a very strong craving for you that left me exhausted. I need to see you and be with you just feel you next to me with no distractions at all. I might see you next Thursday and would enjoying hanging with you. I wanted you to come by on Saturday but my Saturdays this month are starting to look booked I know I have to shoot you but also wanted to just chill with you beyond the shoot. Well, you are at work slaving your life away. I will look for an intern for you so you can rest a bit. Can't wait to see you. Hope you have a great evening and don't work too much. A million hugs and kisses. I feel like have Nutella and Crepe right now. Damn it.

Two Months.

It is the 4th of July and the last time I posted something here was about two months. Time has passed and lot has passed this two months. I have a new car that I love so much and you have had two cars this months. I am working so far from home and you are enjoying the Independence day with your BF. Sorry I missed the BBQ yesterday. I have a shoot this wknd and waiting for the day that you will stand in front of my camera. Hurry up and get things ready so I can get you on film.

Who I love

I have been honest
The most honest I have been to myself or to anyone around me
I love you
And have loved you since I saw you on that Wednesday
I have carried with me
The understanding that something I said
a week after Wednesday has kept me in the side line.
I have hugged and brushed off my fear
for this reality we now share
Everyday,
Every waking day
I wait for the words 'Morning darling'
To appear so gracefully on my computer screen
The begining of my day
and a smile on my face.
My day is coming to an end
And I am about to shut my eyes
In hope that I will wake
With the thoughts of you
Randomly kissing my brain.

To be nice or not to be.

Things have been happening to me that have revealed how wonderful my life is. I still struggling to get the next few issues of my magazine out but the process is teaching me a lot. I am finding out the extent I will let myself go to accommodate the people in my life. I asked myself if I should started demanding a very clear amount of respect. But then it takes away from who I am. I need to find a balance between been nice and letting people take adavntage of my helpful character. I started my day looking through a window that reminded me that I am about to engage in something that would draw me closer to where I want to take my future. My hands got cold and wet but I was not nervous. There is a lot of left over confussion. I tried yesterday to be freinds with my ex but got spit in the face. Should I stop been nice to people just cause I have met a lot of pin heads who are trying to pull my emotions back to the being I have worked so hard to remove myself from. I am at work and I am half way to where I need to be for the day. Slowly and surely I will be able to head home.

Fall in and out of love

Forgot how I fall in and out of love with you sometimes.
Always have to remind myself that our fairy tale was never real.
As days go by, all our events came clear before my eyes
I failed to justify and I failed to understand

In the crowd of emptiness, eye to eye, we were confused with friendship and affection.
Relationship evolved without any guildance.
Changed for each other, was it for the best or for the worst?
Or love should come without fliterization and evolution?
How bitter it was for me to finally know you from never ever knowing you.
I had granted the name of your family without ever knowing you as one.
All your secrets has stoned my heart
On the drop of your key's sound, I swung the sword of wisdom and disrupted our path of eternal empty love.

I still talk to myself about how angry I am over you.
Could change you over time? How am I to live without my ideal mate?
You were my dream, you were my emptiness and you are my past.

horrified to see 3.5 yrs ago me

yes to see myself 3.5 years ago. hahaha very interesting
too bad it had been raining non stop for our suppose-to-be-glorious day
We can't shoot.
I am sick and so is the weather.
We'll recover, all well and sound soon
For you to capture the most beautiful me(even dou i look so crappy, esp when i have bronchitis)
Love you!

Might be more than 3.5yrs...

Now that I am thinking about it I am sure it is about 4years now. The last shoot we did was on my roof in EV. That was a long time sine I moved out of there. I need to get you in a dress. So dope that we are shooting again.

I am starting to fantasize our shoot after 3.5 yrs.

SPARTA

I couldn't believe it was our first movie
OH it was so nice

Raised as a green spartan before the brave 300 was seen
Stepped through the green grass onto the concrete
spartan heart was never weak!

It was the first time we went to the movies. It was long time coming. I hope you had a wonderful time. Just before I go to sleep I want to say "Spartans tonight we dine in hell"

Reborn

I searched long and hard
For who I am
Both inside and out
Peeling off layers of distractions
In an effort to get to the core of my creativity
A few sleepless nights
Stomach aches and grey hairs
I have arrived to something
I had forgotten
While fighting to gain your trust.
My creativity is reborn

love bus

Love was delivered by the adorable yellow VW bus.
Joy-est ride.

Obstacles we created in minds
Misunderstanding words could not articulate
Silence conversation could bear the cry
the tears turned ice, frozen the heart of the fire
as the fire burns and no one will be alive

New Cover. I am working on the next few issues. Trying to balance shoots, models, makeup artists, wardrobe, school work, interviews, writing, family and TV. I have managed to get something productive this week. Next week should be fun and hopefully less chaotic.

Give me Life

So many sad stormy mornings, I wake crying
In handcuffs I wear my fear on my sleeves
I've slaved for your acceptance and passion
To fill my empty being
A blood soaked masked
Play and dance in the river of death
That is now my solace
I've slaved for your acceptance and passion
I have walked, danced, cried, made love to you,
Have labor and even curse God
I am black in color
Surrounded by pain
Pain that has driven me to love
Love that is the energy
That makes me slave for the love
Of the only being that lives in my head and my heart
Take my hand
Take my time
Take my life
And give me life.

Red Roses

Red roses' meaning wil last more than its remaining days
Wind push Valentine's ice flakes towards my face
Show love to Lovers on the bright day
Every step corrupting snow's true color
Flustered by unmoving gifts
Give love more than love.
Every hug on everyday counts

the journey

Foreseen these tears out of my eyes
Warned this path taken will not be easy
Yet fate had lead the road to here
There is no other choice but to walk on
I heard sighs from my angels and crys of my weaknesses
You told me you will hold strong and carry us through
But I look at pair of foot steps on the sand,
I kept thinking it was only you.
Would I lose to distance or whatever come across
I screamed and cried, only heard patience i have not

Will I see the light of day or
Will I self defeat to yet another tragedy i created.
More months and years, our frail promise has to withstand.

LEFT BEHIND

A mirror watching my figure and the noise in my nose
The dancer walking with a twisted spine
While the blind preacher
Long for God to send a miracle
A mother watches as her old man withers into smaller babies
A lover dies as she is stoned by her mistrust
I stand here watching as everything around me
Spits out chaos
Who is this devil trying to steal my angel away from me?
Mother nature tortures those who have forsaken her
I walk with my hand in my mouth
‘Cause I spoke too fast too soon
I am torn into little threads
‘Cause I lied about my love to my lover
This desert that was becoming my domain
Is starting to annoy me to death.
Listen to that song as it whispers to your soul
Great divine
Great divine
Make me walk with you in this shining light
That is now my salvation

FIRST DAY BACK...

12:30pm I walked in my first class since 2003. Damn, it has been long. Going back to school was a way for me to re channel my creativity. As I walked in I could not help noticing my hands were a bit dry. I don't get nervous so I was wondering about this and completely forgot which room my class was in. Well it was fun been back. Walking into the password office. I stood behind a girl whom upon raising my head soon realized was the second girlfriend I ever in the United States of America. It has been 10years since we last spoke or saw each other. This was pre-cell, or Internet. WOW. We talked for a bit, caught up on life and just had a fun. It sure was a fun day. I am home now Lutu is here passed out on the couch. Tomorrow a long early day and we will see what happens. I did say bye to you before I signed out right? Well if not I will say good day to you when I log in later on today.

WTF

your first day of school!
I totally did not realize that its happening until u told me you're off to school!!!
WTF

Another year

As we're in 2007 now and looking forward to the rest of the year. We ended last year and started this year with a good note!

We have survived break ups, patched up relationships.
Unfortunate match up= we both know trusting feeling first has its price.
Good match with unfortunate result. = there is just no second chance, so its ruined.

We survived our first mis understanding, and became better friends
We watch movies, cook, hang out together. Share our life together.
We're best friends. If you were a teenage girl, you would have my other part of the friendship necklace.
No matter what people think or what they suspect. We know who we are and we know the pure friendship we have.

NOW everything started fresh, with history haunting us behind our backs.
We chose to forget, and re-live.

Move far from complication. my friend.

frightened

When self ego is truly let go, then the feeling is love.
Things are only clear, when its far from you.
in a distance, we can see what we had before
We could not go back, no matter how hard we try
Forever I will love you, and forever you will look over me.
Even with a new relationship, even you will forget me
Any thing we do, we understand. I believe that is love

Have i achieve that state of mind? or it is infatuated with jealousy.
If I could only apply the same way of thinking to you.
We make ourselves unhappy.

SHADES...

Looking at the very different shades
Of light dancing around me
I woke with this strong desire to swallow u whole.
Tasting the sweat that race down your shivering
Warm flesh.
The cold air brushing against me
In competition for my attention
U lay in front of me
Eyes open
Lips spread apart waiting
For my brown flesh to taste your soul
I whispered to the air to give me strength.
Looking at the different shades
Of light on your face
I sank my essence in you
Taking your spirit on a floating current.
Reach down to the earth
Feel my root penetrating the soft soil below your body
Come to me
Come closer to me
Feel my pulse
Feel me racing up and into the dept of your soul
There, over there,
Can you see the giant tree I just planted?

I look at the different shades
Of light dancing on your face
And feel the heavens begging me for a kiss.

First time Jamaican...

We had our first Jamaican dinner last night. Dinner, movie with you and your dad always fun. I got home and completed a very creative day. We thought about the name and purpose of this blog yesterday which was the begining of a very creative day. Did a shoot and edited some images before I crash. Hope you will have a great day today.

We woke up

Nothing was more beautiful(despite of the bitter coldness on the streets of New York) then us comeing together and created esoche, this morning.

Collab blog is not a new thing, and definitely we're catching the end of the wave.
More important is for us not to set trends or have a big movement of some kind, that most of us these days tries too hard to achieve.
These words and pictures are plainly just entertainment to ourselves, and hopefully entertain others during the process.
English is not our mother language, hopefully our writing will give a good enough message about us.