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I love your vision and all the images!

I went to the park with my mum and played from on the slide for about 50 minutes on Sunday. It was great and now I am going to sleep.

In Love with Fiona again

What I need is a good defense
'Cause I'm feelin' like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I've sinned against
Because he's all I ever knew of love

lyrics from fiona apple and it was just... an awaken sign
he wants to redeem me again.hahaha

BREATHE

I put my face in my hands
And tears begin to roll down my palm
Washing and cleansing me
Of the pain from my past experience
The desire I once had for living
is beginning to fill my lungs with air
And I can breathe again
Again I breathe
Again I breathe
This breath in my lungs
Strenghtens every muscle in my being
"M.C."
I hear my voicebox call out to you
My stretched arm
Remote and independent
It reached out to touch your soul
Put your face in my hands
Let your tears release you of your past pain
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe Min
Breathe again.
And again.

dream are only dreams

When you're around the heart brightens
Now the silence fell through your eyes
The lake reflect us, this is where our fragile lies shall end
I would live happy with our lies, but they can hold us no longer
when our love brushed through our time
I see what I am capable but I am unable to keep
Remember the day you gave your heart to me
I said You did not know what you are trying to acquire
We now left off where we begin,
But how do I return to before my heart became yours
Try to see what you are from six hundred miles
All the snow flakes cover strengthens love's blind spot
Has it snow today? our cold hands shall not meet again

Destiny?

Our relationship? I have pulled and stretched it and tried to look at it from all angles but got to the point where its left me empty. I guess I used to have hopes and aspirations as to how our relationship would grow. But sitting down and thinking about it these past few months left me feeling like I was left on the way side, just left to hang and watch and cheer to uplift your spirit. I noticed something today while chatting with you, and it dawned on me even if I was angry at you or as now stuck inbetween having consideration for you, I would still lend you my ear to hear your plight and try to make you feel better. Try in my selfless way to left up your spirit. Am I doomed to being the fixer, is my purpose in your life limited to a cheerleader looking for new cheers to lift your soul? Somehow I can't be with you romantically 'cause too much of me is already invested in keeping you safe and happy. I cannot be with you physically either 'cause your eyes can't see it but then I wonder if I would even enjoy it or even satisfy you. So I am left with not much to do except maintain the abundant flow of your happiness. I actually felt guilty not been there for you this past months with all thats happening to you. Is this my destiny or is it my curse?

with love

Breathe. Sky is higher than you think. Love is more than you know.
I love the highways in Texas. IT made me feel how small I am and how insignificant our trouble are.
There are so much more to embrace, and why not the relationship between us.