Fall in and out of love

Forgot how I fall in and out of love with you sometimes.
Always have to remind myself that our fairy tale was never real.
As days go by, all our events came clear before my eyes
I failed to justify and I failed to understand

In the crowd of emptiness, eye to eye, we were confused with friendship and affection.
Relationship evolved without any guildance.
Changed for each other, was it for the best or for the worst?
Or love should come without fliterization and evolution?
How bitter it was for me to finally know you from never ever knowing you.
I had granted the name of your family without ever knowing you as one.
All your secrets has stoned my heart
On the drop of your key's sound, I swung the sword of wisdom and disrupted our path of eternal empty love.

I still talk to myself about how angry I am over you.
Could change you over time? How am I to live without my ideal mate?
You were my dream, you were my emptiness and you are my past.