Hauting thoughts

I have been in love with you for such a long time and for all this time I have battled it keeping at bay so that we would exist seemlessly in each others lives. We both know where we are in regards to our lives outside each other. In a commited relationship that would be threatened if the other parties knows how deep my affection for you has grown. Sometimes I wonder if it is lust associated with love or pure love. I am a rational minded person and have thought through all that is and all that could be. Do I want to spend the rest of my life with you, I would open mindedly say yes at this very minute or any other time the question is asked. O god I have a scatter brain right now. I know I want you and it scars me that I am about to get run over by a train. You know, the old locomotive train filled with concrete slabs enought to fill the Empire State Building 10 times over. You are my best friend according to my logic, but sharing this with you has hunted me for as long as I have known you.