A Stall at the restart

Joyfully but painfully had to take a break at my new gig at DK. Somehow I got so so so sick and could not go in work on the first week. It was pretty embarassing.
My SIster had come into town. We had rest becasue i was too sick, and we were so lazy at home. It was the best time with her. Then we went sister shopping time and eating time and having fun time. My time is now without alcohol and nicotine! I think i'm quitting for good.
I love my sister.
Listening and designing. Pandora is the best work music
Going to see Feist with Candice tonight, finally....
I love her.

My shit is all over the place with dust, love and gross hair is where love does stop but always lingering

This grey period. I love grey, and black and white, but mostly grey.
The weather is beautiful, I went back and forth from NY to EL, it is all lovely, it was all about consuming food and clothing. All about drinking and partying in the most mellow way. We act like high school students and we sing like the end of the world.
Don't ever NOT work because my friend showed that he found the end of the internet. I don't know how he will survive doing this all day. I'd probably get so bored with life.
The next two weeks are all about music and shows.
I'll walk coco my dear friend's dog is a chow chow. He's big and happy! loves running around and i love running after him.
We'll have a love affair. I'm sorry D. It was meant to be!
work is just... blah now. I am excited and scare of my next place! but change was a must!

Life in B&W

No writing today. I am slowly getting the grove of been creative again. I had a digital moment last wknd and really enjoyed it. Tali stood me up for a shoot yesterday but it was expected of her. Why do I even bother. I am going to Coney Island today to shoot. I hope I can produce good work since I feel stuck shooting models which is quickly becoming a big bore. I need to get out of this country. I feel like I have a calling somewhere and need to get there with my trusted camera. So today I will create and create and create some more until I I have taking my hunger for creativity to a level where I am comfortable to create some more. Pencil, pen, ink all on paper. Start getting ready for my summer installation but I need to raise some capital for that. I have talked too much already and now I am started to get that bitter taste in my mouth again. I will try to make life beautiful in Black and White today.

minimal work

So after a week of partying and more coming this week. I managed to do my portfolio and landed the job I had longed for. I will miss every piece of drama and chaos here, but I feel I need to move on.
I wish i am a flake... cause then i don't have to spend so much money and time out. My throat is getting cratchy
I love being irresponsible today. and tomorrow and rest of the week. before i leave.
She know that my heart is not here anymore. I will miss my big food stealer... and rest of the crew. I always love my coworkers, althought at times i can't stay connected. Therefore LInkedin is still not really working for me.
I bought a bunch of shit! That's why i'm gonna sell a bunch of shit too...
Maybe I should get rid of the LV bags we own and just kept there...

Get off my ass

Went to the NYU Tisch Senior show last night. Sidney's work was not as much as I expect. Superfuture kids, highlights the ones that flew from outside New York, there's Sam from Amsterdam, The canadians, San francisco kids, were a touch disappointed. Not by his work ,but the size of his exhibition. He deserve a larger spot with real photos. I am very amazed that superfuture is filled with boys! I was with about 30 boys I"d say, and there are only 2 girls in the group. I felt a little intimidated with all these skinny and fashionable boys around me, therefore I only stayed to my Homies- Dark and Ape. I did not even know one extra name.
2 canadians were left alone and called me at 12 to find dark... Damn, that was sad

STOP SITTING ON YOUR ASS. I say to myself
So the appointment had been scheduled. I have to get off my ltaiwanese drama life finally. Here are my list-

prints
photos
reamp my shit
Want to make my own card. I"m tired of giving my kids' picture to ppl.
TAX!!! tax tax tax
really start to write for WRG Shorty....

Music!
Still in love with Postal Service and Broken Social Scene...
Can't wait till we go to Feist and RJD2!
My sister is coming! oh how much do I miss her. But I never call her

It is not...

I woke feeling a bit worn out but decided to go for a run instead. The more I ran the more pissed I find myself getting. I was angry but what I was angry about eluded me as I battle the cold air that was finding its way fat under my skin through my pores. I spent money I didn't have on my car which I should not be driving at this time. Well, I am gambling with fate now. I feel stuck in this life I am living and constantly feeling that people are very pretentious and it is starting to get under my skin. I watched a movie today and got a bit inspired which I really need. Well, I am getting into one of my "don't want to deal with people mood" again and it will take me a long time to get back into a better mood. Don't get me wrong I am happy with my life and where I am right now, I just feel dissatisfied with the people in my life. Like I have given too much of myself and starting to feel like I should stop the giving. Time to go kill some one on 'God of War'.

uh! its march

Uni panini $15 a pop was a bit much but I have to admit that it was pretty good.Very crowded on a tuesday night and there is only standing room. Decor is beautiful, the chef is the sweetest! Love the place love the food.
El Quinto PIno.

SO I think I should make pancake again this sunday. I'm so addicted to them....

ITs march, and i'm sleepy